day 7

Don wrote:
Day 7 and we got good marks today!! After today's radiation treatment, we visited the doctor, updating him on how I was feeling and what other things we were doing for the cancer...after which he said to me "you sir, are in good hands", speaking of my chief nutritionist and taker care of specialist.  (And she is also my water nazi. 128 oz per day. 4 qts every day. To wash the Chemo out.)

I have discovered a devotional by Oswald Chambers that has amazingly been talking just to me, often telling me just what I need to hear.   http://www.myutmost.org/12/1207.html 

I read in Oswald Chambers this morning:            

"For godly sorrow worketh repentance to salvation." 2 Corinthians 7:10   


When we sin we sin against Him.


Jesus Christ said that when the Holy Spirit came He would convict of sin.


Conviction, repentance, forgiveness, holiness. The Holy Spirit convicts, we repent, God forgives.

"The entrance into the Kingdom is through the panging pains of repentance crashing into a man's respectable goodness; then the Holy Ghost, Who produces these agonies, begins the formation of the Son of God in the life."


"...it is only the forgiven man who is the holy man, he proves he is forgiven by being the opposite to what he was, by God's grace."


It is said that crises bring us closer to God, I can only hope that I will be.  






more thoughts on 'why me?':
I have often thought that cancer only happens to 'other people', surely not me. Bad things only happen to somebody else, and we read about it in the paper or on the internet. Bad news sells....But this time I got the bad thing.
I wasn't affected initially (this really isn't happening to me), it's been a gradual realization that I am the one going into the radiation room, I am the one that has to have the mask bolted to the table and I am the one getting the chemo treatments. So, why me .. these are the thoughts that have been on my mind. So I read this this morning:


Paul said in Phillipians 1:12-14, when he was in prison: 
Now I want you to know, brothers, that what has happened to me has really served to advance the gospel.
As a result, it has become clear throughout the whole palace guard [fn] and to everyone else that I am in chains for Christ.
Because of my chains, most of the brothers in the Lord have been encouraged to speak the word of God more courageously and fearlessly.


Maybe, just maybe, God has placed me in treatment to speak His Word to people at the hospital, to encourage just one or two other brothers to 'speak the word of God more courageously and fearlessly.' 
Maybe just one?